And The Dating Game begins...

A lot has happened since I last blogged. I have moved back to Maryland to start my life over. I had to make a difficult decision, either stay and be unhappy or leave and start over while I still can. I chose leave and start over and be happy again. It is not easy to leave everything behind and start over. I owe so much gratitude to all of my wonderful friends and family! Without their support these past few months, I would have never been able to make it. I am so blessed to have theses amazing people in my life! And with that I will begin a new start and new topic in my blog:

The dating game. Everyone talks about it, some people refuse it exists and I have not been in it for years. One can try to avoid it and say it doesn't exist, but somehow, sadly, it does. I have decided to start blogging about my adventures with my new life and game.

A friend told me the other day that I have to play the game. I told him that I'm too old for games and laughed. Somehow, I think he is right. I'm sure life would be so much easier if we didn't have to go through all theses trials and tribulations, but sadly(sigh) we do.

The main topic I have come across is the accessible subject. Don't be too accessible! Everyone warns. You will seem too eager, he won't get the chase he wants, he will think you are desperate. So how accessible should we be? It seems that we have to draw a fine line between off the radar map and interested.

More to come...

Engagement/ Bridal Portraits

Here we are less than two months until the big day! Our photo session went very well. My friend took such wonderful pictures and I couldn't be happier. It was 105 degrees on Saturday and we were all hot and uncomfortable. Though, you would never be able to tell looking at the pictures. We also took Bridal Portraits after we sent Jason home. I will hopefully have those sometime this week.

The Wedding Blog Begins

After searching on the internet for lots of ideas as the wedding approaches, I decided it's time for a change. I have viewed many blogs of brides-to-be and decided I would like to write about being a Bride-to-be as well.

With less than 2 months until the "Big Day", there isn't much left. We have purchased our rings, our "Guestbook", of course "The Dress" and put a deposit down on Jason's tux.

We decided to go with a different type of guestbook, since I don't see myself flipping through pages of names and remembering everyone. We decided to go with a new idea of a framed picture. Well the framed picture isn't a new idea, but we found a frame made of alloy that will be inscribed as everyone signs on it. We found it at: idoengravables.com

We are having our pictures taken this Saturday as our Couples Portraits and then Jason is leaving, so I can take my Bridal Portraits too. I'm really excited! My friend from High School lives right here in Dallas and is an amatuer photographer.

I'll post the pictures as soon as I get them.

Also, we are about to send out the invitations, finally! I have had my list finished, but Dad has procrastinated and is finishing it up today, hopefully!

We are trying to get the invitations out as soon as possible, since he wants a reply by August 20th.

Back and better than ever!

So, I know that I have been a slacker about blogging so I'm going to try to be better about that. My Texas Best friend Sam and I saw "P.S. I Love You" yesterday and it really put things into perspective. I loved that movie so much! I couldn't wait to come home and wrap my arms around Jason and tell him how much I love him and how I'm not going to let the small stuff bother me. What I got out of the movie was that all that matters is that we love each other unconditionally and have each other. So when something happens I'm going to try to stay in that perspective instead of get all upset over nothing. Because after all, it really is nothing.

Maybe Not So Positive

It does become hard in life to keep yourself positive when there is so much negativity in your life. I don't want to give up, I want to work it out, but working it out is so hard. I didn't think it was supposed to be this hard? I know you are going to have ups and downs, but why do the ups always seem so short and the downs so long? Time will only tell.

In the begining

I've decided after reading Power's Blog that I would like to try this out myself. I have been going through a lot of changes and would like somewhere to put them. As I mentioned in my comment to Power, I just started reading "The Monk who sold his Ferrari". The book is great and I'm so glad I have come across it. I have decided to start eating healthier and trying to concentrate on positive things. I never realized how often negative things fill ones mind until I tried to block them all out. Each day I have been trying to focus on the good instead of the bad and I think when I can achieve this, I will feel so much better. It's like an internal spring cleaning, just every day. Perhaps every week, I guess it depends on each person. I used to do this on my own. I would write down everything that upset me and it will feel like I released it out of my inner thoughts and it seemed so far away from my thoughts. This would be the same way, however through meditation.

As far as the healthier eating side, I've done really well. I went to the grocery store on Monday and bought lots of vegetables and fruit. I have maintained my healthy eating for almost the whole entire week. My fiancee decided to have date night last night and we went out to eat. I chose something healthy, but I don't know everything that went on it. I still felt good afterwards though.

Well that's about it for now. I will keep you posted on what is to come.